disneyfreak01

Weird...

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 03:57:19 GMT

I haven't written in so long! I'm so sorry about that!

Well yes me and Brendan are still together after 2 months.

But there has been some bumps in the relationship.

Like today. My friends and I went to this little town that is like, the hang out spot. Brendan ended up coming with us because I hardly get to see him anymore. We text and IM and comment each other on myspace, but we dont ever talk on the phone or see each other anymore and its starting to scare me because i dont want him to find someone else that he sees alomost every day.
So in this little town, i was hanging out with some of my friends that he sees everyday and he was hanging out with the ones I see everyday. Then I would run around with my friends and he would get mad.
My friend Alisha and I walked off somewhere because we wanted to do something funny. I heard Brendan calling, "amanda...amanda...amanda" and i just kept walking with my frined. Once we realized [[ when we got to where we watned to be ]] that they werent following us, we decided to keep walking to see when they do start to follow us. We got all the way to Coffee Bean [[which is kinda far from where they were all standing]] we decided to stay there.
Then i got a call from my friend asking us where we went and where we are and i told her the coffee bean.
She said okay and hung up. Then i got a text from brendan asking me where i was and i said coffee bean and he said "wow thank you for leaving me, im mad btw[[by the way]]" and i was like "are you serious? why?" and he said "cuz everytime im with you, you run off with everyone else" and i was like what i dumb reason! and he should understand that if we are in a big group im not going to be with just him.

Then[[ this was before]] i was talking to my friend Jacob about Zac Efron and how hot he is. Brendan found out and he walked away like he was "sad" and it pissed me off because he expected me to follow him. When I didnt follow him he came back.

I love him but he can frustrate me a lot! We have little fights all the time and sometimes they go too far. Sometimes i just wish that he wouldnt be like this.

Sorry if this is like annoying but its what happened. well gotta go... dont feel like writting about my sad day. Bye!

My b-day party

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 21:27:45 GMT

So I had a birthday party.....and it was fun!!!!

So at first my mom and my friend KD [[ who spent the weekend with me ]] went to go pick up my friend Daniel.....who got me an iHome!!!! I was like OMG I LOVE U!!! lol

Then when we got there we had a lot of fun. I saw my friend Andrena who i havent seen since like ever [[ cuz she is home skooled ]] and yeah.

Brendan and his friend Nik showed up. And then all my other friends showed up. It was a fun party, until James and Cameron showed up. Then things got out of control.

Well, my frined Kd's BF, Connor [[ who is my ex-bf ]] ended up showing up when he said he wouldnt. So then everyone is like " great he's here " [[ no one really likes him ]] so then Cameron kept throwing this ball at KD and Connor. And Cameron and my other friends were throwing candy like everywhere. I was like WTF?!?! STOP!!!!! So then, Cameron like made a bad comment about my friend Daniel [[ like is was SUPER mean ]] so i kicked him out. Then James said to Jacob [[ who threw the party ]] that he feels sorry for Connor because he is only dating KD to get closer to me. And i was like " WTF?!?! ur kicked out now " [[ cuz i told KD what he said ]] " you made my friend cry! " so then James went outside with Cameron and Brendan went outside too [[ cuz Brendan and James have been best friends for 13 years ]] then I heard from Jacob that Brendan said " Either Connor is going or I am " and i am like " wtf why?? if he really loves me he would stay for me! he wouldnt leave because of stupid connor " so then I went outside to the back and like sat down and i was about to cry, cuz i mean that pissed me off. That is the second time he has pissed me off in the relationship that we have. So i was about to be fed up with him, like if he left i was going to say it was over because this whole thing with connor and cameron and james was stupid. So then i heard that a lot of my friends went up their and asked him who was more important " your GF or you best friend [[ referring to James ]]" and he said " my GF " so he ended up staying. When he came back, for like the first 20 min. i wasnt talking to him or was trying to avoid him because he still pissed me off. Then he was really sweet and yeah, i forgave him. Then we " watched " Freddy vs. Jason [[ i couldnt watch it cuz it had too much blood and i hate the sight of dead ppl that have blood all over ]] and so Brendan and I were TRYING [[ cuz Jacobs mom kept coming in and out to watch us and sometimes she would stay in the room ]] to make out. We did though. Haha like there were 3 couples there [[ me and Brendan, James [ who came back wit Cameron and Jacobs mom said they HAD to stay ] and Ally and Kevin and Nicole ]] so yeah. Then Brendan had to go and then Connor left too so KD and I got bored after they left so we decided to go home. It was like 8: 30 when we got home and we were supposed to go home at 10:00 but i thought Brendan would stay until I left but i guess he didnt. So then yeah. That was my party. My actual B-day is monday [[ tomorrow ]] and yeah!!! i am going to be 13!!!! finally!!!! even though my friends have said I have been 13 since i was 8. lol!! anyway, yeah.........

Loving BF

Fri, 12 Oct 2007 02:34:34 GMT

OMG! I love my BF! He is so SWEET!!!!!

So, I was talking to my friend Lara on AIM one day and I decided to look at Brendans myspce page. His new Myspace name is " I THINK IM IN......LOVE" and i was like [[to lara]]
wtf?!?!? i thought he KNEW he loved me? and whats with the dots?
and she was all
I dont know

so then i asked if she thought he really, like truely loved me and she said "honestly no, because he is 15 and probably doesnt know what love is yet."

and i said "true but i mean.........i dont know"

so then i saw him yesterday right....

and I talked to him on AIM and the first thing he said to me when he signed on was " I MISS YOU ALREADY!" and i was like [[ to myself ]] " can he get any cuter? "

so then we were talking and yeah.

Then I decided to tell him what Lara said [[ but didnt tell him it was lara that said it ]] but i only told him the "honestly no" part cuz i wanted to see wht he would say.

and he said " wht? dont listen to them" "i have never felt this way about a girl b4" and i was like [[ to myself again ]] OMG I LOVE HIM!!!!

then i had to go cuz my mom was making me get off the comp so i said " i g2g " and he said " ok " " but seriously, I do love you " then i said love you too [[ cuz i mean it, i mean i have never felt the way i feel when i am around him. When i am not with him i get upset, you know, real love ]] so ya. I thought it was cute!

Wednesday

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 01:40:42 GMT

OMG!!! So much drama has happend since Brendan's party.

James and my friend Allison broke up after like 5 months because he likes his ex-GF (and my best friend) Nicole. Allison was like devistated. I AM SO PISSED OFF AT HIM!!!! He is mad at me because he thinks that I am spreading rumors about him and Allison's break-up.
I was like WTF?!?!?! when I heard that.

Anyway, yesterday was SO EMBARRASSING!

Brendan came over to my house for a little while. He talked to my step-dad and my mom and I was in the computer room with my friend Jacob and I was like "OMG!ggrrrrr" and he would just laugh. But then we had pizza and then my mom drove Jacob home (and I found out today that when we dropped him off no one was home and he had to wait outside until 9 o'clock and we had dropped him off at 7 o'clock) and then we had to go drop off Brendan and his house. His mom and my mom know have known each other for a while (like b4 Brendan and I were born!) and so they were talking and him and I went into his room and we watched T.V. and he was yelling at his little sister to get out of his room (because the computer is in his room so she goes on it too and his mom ect.) so yeah. That was fun.

Then today I met up with him at the local shopping center and we walked to my house. It was fun. I wasn't supposed to see him but I did anyway (I am grounded). Like I said, it was fun. HaHa

OH! Now James is apparently going to ask out Allison againg. I was like OMG! THEY ARE MESSED UP! So yeah. I have to get off the comp because my mom thinks I am doing a HW assignement (which I finished). So bye!

Wont let me see my entries/ Greatest BF ever!

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 16:40:24 GMT

My computer is being so gay! It wont let me view my entries because of stupid parental blocks. It isnt my moms fault, she probably doesnt know how to work the parental block. It just blocks things that it wants.

Anyway, the real reason that I am here is that I dont know if I mentioned that I am going out with a REALLY HOT 10th grader. His name is Brendan. He is so cute. He is like the best BF i have EVER had! Since he goes to high school and I am in my last year of middle school, he still comes to my school to see me. Yesterday (September 25, 2007) he met my friends and I at the local shopping center. It was fun. I was finally alone with him too. We made out like we always do. We also kissed. Like not make out, but kiss. Like we would be holding hands and he would just kiss me. HE IS SO CUTE! hahahahaha. Well, i am at home sick and i am not supposed to be on the comp so i am going to get off so my mom doesnt catch me! XD hahahaha.

School

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 01:27:04 GMT

Well, I don't think I like Josh anymore. I mean if he likes me wouldn't he have asked me out by now? He knows I like him. It is just frustrating. But there is this REALLY HOT Sophmore at the local high school that I am going to the JV football game with on Friday. I am so excited! And there is this kid that goes to my friends church that I have liked since June and I think he likes me back because my friend Misty saw him yesterday and she said that he said Hi and to give me a hug (and he gave her the hug that she was supposed to give me and when she gave it to me, apparently he sqeezed because thats what she did) and I said, "Well, he gave you the same type of hug didnt he?" and she said "no he gave me a regular hug" so i was like yes!

So, yeah. I have got better guys that actually wanna tell me they like me. Josh will never do that. So whatever. His loss.

Friday

Fri, 14 Sep 2007 23:30:59 GMT

Well, today wasn't that interesting. My friends and I got a big group of people to join in a game called "Concentration."It was really fun. Josh was going to join at lunch but then none of my friends made room for him when he came over (I was yelling at them. Saying "Move some people want to come in). Then, in 6th period, we got ASSIGNED SEATING! He did it by last names. Josh doesn't sit too far from me but it isn't anywhere close. Well, when we moved, he like put his head on his desk and stared at me. He did that a lot today (stared at me). Well, yeah thats pretty much it. Going to the local high school football game!

He had the "Why......" look on his face

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 00:41:25 GMT

Ok, so today at snack my friends and I decided to play "Imaginary Beach" just cuz we are cool like that (I scraped my knee trying to "surf").

Anyway, the real reason I am posting is because today in 6th period, I decided to sit somewhere else. Usually I sit behind Josh (it is open seating in my 6th period). I saw there was a seat for me in front of him and I was wondering if he only sits there because I do. So then I sat near my friend Amber instead and when I looked at Josh, he was looking at me like, "Why is she sitting over there?" and I was like "YES he noticed!" I dont think he saw me see him but whatever. Then he was looking at me the rest of the period. It was SO AWESOME! Anyway thats all I wanted to say!

We had a moment

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 01:28:38 GMT

OMG! I had a moment with Josh today! Today in 6th period, we had a test and it was kinda hard. Josh sat behind me, AGAIN! So anyway, after the test I took out my rubics-cube and started to fix it. Then my teacher said "You're never going to get it," which made my friends laugh. So anyway, the moment........

When the bell rang, I got up and out my backpack on the desk in font of me, which was empty, and since Josh sat behind me, he stared at me! I saw him stare at me when I looked up. He was still sitting in his seat so, yeah! HE WAS STARING AT ME! I think I am going to apalogize to James soon. Maybe he was right, maybe Josh DOES like me? IDK. Well, yeah, more tomorrow!

Monday

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 01:39:50 GMT

Well, the first couple hours of the day rocked! I saw Josh, but I didnt talk to him. Well in 6th period i kinda did. More about that later. So when I got to school I made up with Lara because she is one of thoes friends were you cant stay mad at them for a long time. But I still hate James. He lied to me big time, but then being at school today and seeing Josh, I dont know if he lied or not. So, anyway, Josh kept looking at me today and I don't know if it's because he knows I like him, or he likes me back, or he thinks I am an idiot. Well, at lunch my friend Misty and I were in the lunch line next to Josh and I saw my friend Wesley go in to the same line that Josh was in. Then I saw Wesley's ugly hair cut and decided to tell Misty. We were yelling for Wesley who couldn't hear us, when I saw Josh look at me then look back to where I was talking to Wesley. Was he looking at me the whole time? I dont know. Then, he just kept looking! So in 6th period we went back to single desk. Josh usally sat infront of me, but today he decided to sit BEHIND me! What was that supposed to mean? Then, since he sat behind me, I got to pass this paper back to him, and he said "Thanks" with a smile! Then we had to do this worksheet where we had to find out what the state names were (they were labeled 1-10) and I said, "Whats #4?" just to anyone, and he said "Idaho, wait no it isn't" and he laughed with a smile and I said, "Oh." He is SO CUTE! Well, I just got my acoustic guitar so I am going to tune it. Bye!

P.S.- Somone stole my iPod nano today! I am so pissed!

LifeTime Movies

Sun, 09 Sep 2007 02:56:21 GMT

I am watching a lifetime movie right now and it is about a 9th grader who got another 9th grader pregnet. Kd is watching it wit me(my bestest friend in the world). I think someone is either going to die or the 2 kids are going to run away together! That is how all lifetime movies go duh.

The Last Day of the First Week

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 23:16:50 GMT

Well, the first week of school was okay. Except for the last day. Well that kid Josh I was talking about apparently likes me. Well, thats what my friend James said. James sits next to Josh in math so James asked Josh if he likes me and he said maybe with a smile on his face. Well I got really excited until I found out my best friend Lara told Josh's best friend Brandon that I like Josh. I got extremley mad at her. That's when James had told me about Josh liking me. So in 6th period(which Josh is in and he sits right next to me) Josh and I hardley spoke. I was just too happy. Then I got home and signed on AIM and was talking to Lara because I forgave her for what she did. That's when I got an IM from Brandon(Josh's best friend) asking if i was mad that Josh knew. I said no and he said that Josh didn't have any feelings for me. The smile on my face just dropped. I was so upset. The James had signed on like an hour later. I said I hated him and now him and I are in a fight. He wont talk to me until I know he's right. I cant stand people like that! Anyway, thats how my first week went.

School

Fri, 07 Sep 2007 00:19:18 GMT

Well, school started. I am now in eighth grade. I had so much fun my first day!!!! (september 4, 2007). My classes are:

1. Phys. Science
2.Math
3.English
4.P.E.
5.Elective
6.U.S history

And I saw a bunch of my friends I didnt see over the summer. It was really fun. Well, in my sixth period, there is this kid named Josh. He used to sit in front of me, but since my teacher made them into tables today, he sits next to me. I am so happy. He is showing all the signs that he likes me, but i am not quite sure yet. He is one of my ex- boyfriends best friend, so it's going to be awkward if him and I start dating. Anyway, it's been a great frist couple of days. I will write more often! BYE! XD